Tough Subjects & Lots of Hope

I have been debating whether or not to write anything on the subject of our recent miscarriage. First I didn’t quite know what I wanted or felt like writing, two I didn’t know if it was something I even wanted to share about at all. I have always been a person that processes her feelings through written words – more than anything it helps me label how I am feeling and helps me feel BETTER about it. So I opened up a new blog post and just started writing.

I have come to the conclusion after all of this.. that the individuals I have confided in with our sad news, have been so wonderful and loving… and as a result I have learned of SO. MANY. other women and families who have experienced a heartbreaking loss too. New bonds have been formed and some old relationships have strengthened as if we are all saying: we are not alone – I have been there and I won’t let you feel alone in these moments. It’s because of the love and support that has been poured over me from the few I have shared with, that has helped me move through a very rough couple of weeks.

An ultrasound scan at 10 weeks revealed to us no heartbeat. Even though something had felt off the entire pregnancy – something that just didn’t feel right…there are really no words that can describe the heartbreak when you hear those words. I have had my time to mourn over these past few weeks, but even typing these words brings tears to my eyes.

Brandon and I cried together, we talked for hours late that night, and slowly our moods shifted to positivity and hope. And since then I have had my moments, and my hours and my days… but for the most part I look at my sweet baby Jett and our healthy, thriving, happy family and am just so grateful for all that is right now. I can’t tell you how blessed I feel daily to have the support and love from my boys. It’s what gets me up in the morning and drives me all day long. Brandon, Jett, Mochi – you too: I love you guys, thank you for your contagious happiness that breathes light into my days.

If you’re reading this and experienced a miscarriage, or a painful loss, I just want to be here for you too. There are no words that can be said to heal, just words of love and hope. <3



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  1. Jamie McBryan
    December 19, 2018 / 4:24 pm

    Love, hugs and prayers for peace and strength to you. God has blessed you and is with you always, especially when you’re hurting. Take comfort knowing He is taking care of your family on earth & your angel baby. 💕

  2. December 19, 2018 / 6:29 pm

    Thank you for sharing your story with us. I’m sending prayers to your sweet and beautiful family. – @Sideofglam

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